Thursday, September 13, 2007Embrace Change
Two weeks to go, and all is chaos. My habits and schedules are breaking down. I'm not a particularly habit-driven person -- I'd happily turn my back on all of them if it weren't for the fact that those routines are the only things propelling me through some of the less gratifying (but necessary) parts of my personal life. And I realize that they were already doomed -- the patterns that have sustained me for the last couple of years will no longer be directly relevant in Portland, so they were never going to survive the trip. But I wasn't quite ready to throw them out yet.
Still, this morning was the one I wished for weeks ago, when I woke up with only a couple of weeks left before my departure. I have a short-term place to stay lined up, my car has been declared ready for launch, my trailer has been reserved, I'm 50% of the way to packed already, and my to-do list is getting shorter by the day. I have a couple of little jobs left to do, but after some schedule adjustments I think I've got things pretty well in hand. Except for that whole chaos thing, I mean.
And they took my desk away at work. They rearranged the office in which I've been working the last few months, and when I returned, there was no spot in it for me. I know, what assholes! I think their thinking was, a) I'm leaving shortly anyway, b) half of my remaining time will be spent at an entirely different desk covering the phones for a co-worker who'll be away, and c) the guy who's replacing me will actually be based in an entirely different part of the building (which is a good thing for him), so there's no point in staking out a desk for someone who'd only be sitting there for four more days. And I can't argue with that. But still, it means that even my work routines have been cast aside, and I'm adrift for the remainder of my time there.
Everything is just higgledy-piggledy, I tell you.
Incidentally, I was this close to completely re-working my driving route just for a chance to get a glimpse of the geostationary banana over Texas. I may not know much about art, but I know what I like. |