Sunday, October 21, 2007
Progress Report #1

The stress of moving has finally caught up to me. Through all of that difficult trip, the initial confused wandering around town, the subsequent San Francisco trip, and right up through this week I've been fine, holding my own, staying optimistic, having faith that everything was going to be just fiiine. And I'm not saying I don't feel that way now.

But damn, I'm pretty tired.

I feel like sleeping all the time. I'm a little lethargic. I want to go out, meet people, do things, but this room is so safe and peaceful, and the street outside is still mostly unknown. I'm breaking out like crazy. I'm getting headaches. I wake up with stiff shoulders every morning, and my jaw's sore from grinding my teeth at night.

It's cool, though. I'm fine, everything's good -- it's just that moving is, you know, hard. I have two major objectives at present: 1) to find a reasonably stable source of income; and 2) to find a more permanent place to live. I've been working on both, but the past few days have seen heavy activity on the place-finding front -- and kids, it's not fucking pretty. It's still easier by far than it was in London or LA -- I can reasonably expect to live in almost any part of town I want, if I'm willing to put in the effort, and there are plenty of prospects on Craigslist on a daily basis. And I'm not going to go into detail, because nobody's really interested. But let's just say it's been... interesting.

So I think I'm going to put finding a new place aside for at least the next month, and focus on the income, which really needs to come first anyway. The place I'm in now costs a bit more than I really wanted to spend, but it's not outrageously expensive, I like the two housemates well enough, the room is comfortable, it's in a pretty good neighborhood, and I can stay on a month-to-month basis for a while. So I think now I should just make the best of a perfectly acceptable situation. I know, though, that if I stay through November, I'll almost certainly end up staying through December as well, and once I've gotten two or three months worth of comfortable, I'll be even less likely to budge.

But maybe this is just paying my dues. Hopefully in a few months I'll know a few more people, I'll know the city better, I'll know what my life is really going to be like and what I can afford, all that kind of stuff. And maybe by then I'll feel secure enough to weather the storm of Portland crazies with spare rooms.
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